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Andrej Bilovsky

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Business Trips

My dearest trustworthy man.
My nerves are wracked.

Not wealthy,
only moderately sexy,
but untrue?
            never.
(Despite the warnings)

Your undertaking
is to fulfill my oldest dream.
And yet, there are all these business trips.

A coincidence or not?
Your cheery Chicago conference
and my San Francisco draining away.

I’m like a funeral in three-quarter time.
Where are the mourners?

Maybe I should make lists.
Or come to terms with my body.

But then there’s this relationship
and that brutal law of diminishing returns.

As for my head…
each one of my thoughts refutes the one before.

I’m beginning to think that
love is a flawed premise.

An explosion
where the sudden shock
compromises the long term harm.


Andrej Bilovsky (he/him) is a poet and performance artist. Former editor of  Masculine-Feminine and Kapesnik. His poetry can be found at the Quiver and Down In The Dirt.



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  1. AnonymousJanuary 17, 2023 at 2:34 PM

    Stunning poem. The premise of last two stanzas are deeply original. Nice work

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